Ira Glass, producer of “This American Life,” wishes he was told early in his career that he would be frustrated by the difference between the tastefulness what he could create and his taste. His own early works stunk, and he warns that many young artists stop at this stage; stop due to the mismatch between what they do and their judgement of it.
I see this in my clients (and in myself too) all the time. Therapy is about adding new things to your life: new behaviors, new ways of thinking, new views. At first, and often for a long time, what you want to change and the change are out of whack. It takes time and it takes patience, and mostly it takes persistence. Be gentle and forgiving of yourself and your family.